in the ass

I would give anything for this class to end

I would give anything to be able to sleep

or to give up on being "social"

or go "full throttle"

will I go to my friend's half birthday party? I don't know.

I really, really don't want to.

I would give anything to punch my professor in the face

and to set my email account on virtual fire

and cut this girl's hair off who's sitting in front of me

I would give anything to get away with being fucked up

I would give anything to go back and avoid

accumulating four ACES

-abandoned by parent

-family member with addiction

-family member with mental illness

-family member deceased

I would give anything to hide this

from my face and my posture and the way I talk

or don't talk

I would give anything for time

time to sleep for a month

cry for a month

hurt myself for a month

fuck for a month

write, holed up, with books, for a month

become a successful writer

forever

I would give anything to fuck historical trauma

and racism

and classism

and sexism

in the ASS