summer housing

april

feel like all I care about these days

is what you think of me

and not eating too many carbs

and finding summer housing

I've seen you four times

april 4, 2014.

the first time I ever saw you:

surf and turf night, oversized crawfish impostors

your scruffy, uneven cut honey sand smeared mess

girl I knew from class, but didn't notice me

the second time I saw you:

sweaty, uncomfortable, fourloko

lipstick drunk (so fucking sweaty)

back against the wall, too cool for me

the third time I saw you:

library, trying to focus

tattoos on your forearm, hello girlfriend

smart, making rounds, making eye contact with me

the fourth time I saw you:

caught off guard, entertaining banalities

plaid dress, crochet, broadway

heart splintered into bloody thump when you walked past me